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So, since I am creating this blog just for me, and it's pretty much supposed to inspire to me to stop being so afraid of things, I'm sure there will be a little bit of everything here. Sometimes funny, sometimes angry or sentimental, but always real. And always 100% me. With my last blog, I attempted to be very careful what I said and how I said it so that I wouldn't offend anyone. I often failed spectacularly. Example one, within my first five posts, I managed to offend my mom to the point that she refused to read another blog entry unless someone asked her directly about it. True story.
So why am I here? What story do I have to tell? I'm not 100% sure. I guess we'll figure it out together. Often, I don't even know what I want to say until I'm finished writing something. Even then, what I thought I was going to write about becomes a different beast entirely.
A bit about me, just in case you are new here. I am a wife and mother. My husband is serving his last deployment before he retires this summer. I am excited for the changes, but will really miss military life. Right now, I'm in the minority. Every one else in the family is over it, which is a good sign, because major life changes are difficult and if you are looking forward to them then the transition is always easier.
Right now we live in Minot, North Dakota. It's our second winter here. Last winter was amazing and a completely false presentation of what a North Dakota winter was really like. This year, I have had my eyes opened - frozen open, if you will - because we have had so. much. snow. and bitter, bitter cold. Which in itself is good, because prior to this winter, I didn't want to leave Minot. Ever.
Now? Well, let's just say while I'll still miss the area and the people, I will not miss a -40 wind chill. I used to say that I love cold weather. But I meant 'cold weather' like we had in North Carolina. The kind of cold weather where you didn't actually need a coat most of the time. Here in good ol' Minot? You go outside with the wind whipping around without proper winter gear, you are going to be in trouble and quickly! I learned that the hard way, just in case you were wondering.
I love to read, watch movies, take pictures, write, and pretend like I'm crafty. Which I'm not. At all. I am overweight and struggle greatly with food and trying to lose the extra pounds. I have very disordered thoughts and practices when it comes to food. I either want to binge eat or starve myself. I've been working really hard to find a healthy balance with food for the last two years and am finally starting to make some progress, but it's a daily battle.
I have a love/hate relationship with housework. I love it when the house is clean and organized, but absolutely hate getting everything just the way I like it only to have the kids come home and destroy in 15 minutes what it has taken me hours to do. I'm still not sure how that happens because the kids are great and not really destructive. Just typically messy and clutter bugs.
I love music and dancing, but managed to Zumba my way into a serious hip issue that now has me mentally dancing more than actually. Guess how many calories mental dancing burns. Zero. It's really most disappointing.
I'm painfully socially awkward. When I click with someone initially and can have an intelligent, non-awkward conversation, I see fireworks, and hear bells ringing and think - briefly - that maybe I've finally figured out whatever formula there is for not sounding like a dork when meeting someone new. Alas, within 15 minutes, I generally prove myself wrong. But I keep on trying. I'm very shy and introverted by nature (which is why the blogging from the safely of my computer in my home), but when I get to know you I'm extremely outgoing. I'm sure there's some psychological diagnosis for that, but right now it just adds one more tick in my awkward column.
I have a serious case of RBF (resting bitch face). But I'm not as mean or angry as my RBF makes me seem. I swear. So if you ever see me in public, please say hi. It will make my day.
And, that's about it. I have a hot date with the elliptical machine at the gym and I need to get there before the lunch crowd does, so I'm off.
Thanks for coming. I hope you'll come back soon!